Butterfly Effect

butterlies

I don’t think I accept chaos theory,

but I know that small wing flaps

in my life have probably caused tornadoes.

Present determines future, but approximate present doesn’t

approximately determine the future. That is chaos.

 

Learn more about the butterfly effect and chaos theory

Two-Hearted River

I flow today like this two-hearted river.

My energies come from two different places

in my past that should have passed,

but they have pooled around me today.

I’m trying to empty them. Dissipation. Loss.

river

The most famous Two Hearted River runs through Michigan and the branches drain into Lake Superior.  That’s not my two-hearted river.

 

Pentimento

A new year is drawn but shows

days recently erased still beneath.  It’s repentance.

It has a long life. It bleeds

through the new work, day, life

and haunts the wet, freshly painted present.

 

Blue Room

Picasso’s 1901 Blue Period painting The Blue Room under infrared imaging revealed another portrait underneath the room scene. This pentimento is a bearded man in formal wear wearing a number of rings on his fingers. Did Pablo run out of money for a new canvas, or did he regret what he had painted?

At Fourteen

At fourteen, I thought less about the future
and, unaware of Buddhism, lived in the moment.
Even a day was usually unplanned, spontaneous,
open to what the universe had planned for me.

If life is like a sonnet, the turn occurred when
the future became my focus and the present
rushed by out of control, and the past
became nostalgia, a read book fondly remembered.

At fourteen, I believed, without proof, in eternity.
The days unfolded unbidden and I was content
in thinking at some point I would be able to see

That fourteen-year-old’s future is my present,
slipping away from what I wanted it to be,
and even partially my past, now already spent.